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Hi guys! I'm back for another post about the project work from today till Thursday and on Thursday, my class will have to present the work. I so damn hate project work and i wish there won't be any project work in sec. But i know that will be impossible. This year's project work is about Earth Hour and Earth hour had passed for about three months. Anyway, Mrs Azhar wanted us to choose our own group which must have five people and i went to a group that i don't like cause costine is one of the group members.

But after recess, Mrs Azhar changed his place and he go to another group.[sigh] Luckily i'm not going to be in a group with him for the next three days. It's so embarrassing. But now, we're not in the same group and i'm so relieved. By the way, back to the main thing, today, Mrs Azhar helped us with some of the work in the paper and she also explained to us what to do and she gave us some examples. My group and i discuss some of the ways to save energy in Singapore but mostly, i just stay at my place and didn't say anything and copy my friend when they wrote something in the paper. Although i tried my best to join in the conversation, i was aware that i hate project work so much that i wish i can don't come to school whenever there's project work.

I also realised that for the project works i had for the last three years, i like P5's project work the most and i participate in most of the things except for presentation. It killed me to present to the whole class especially with the whole class staring at you when you didn't say anything or when you say something wrong. It feels so weird and i don't like the way they stared at me as if there's something wrong with me. So i prefer to be at one corner doing nothing except pay attention to what the other group members was presenting. I don't know why but since the show-and-tell in P1, i was very afraid to stand in front of the whole class.

Same goes for P2, 3 and 4. P2, we also had show-and-tell. But what happened was that when my teacher called me to tell me that it's my turn, i refused to stand in front of the whole class. My friends and teacher encouraged me but i still refused to stand in front of the class. My teacher tell me that if i don't present, i would end up getting a zero and i told her that it doesn't matter as long as i don't need to stand in front of the class. My teacher refused to give me a zero and my friends also keep encouraging me. I don't know why but in the end, i burst into tears. My friends and teacher saw my reaction and realise that i'm scared of standing in front of the whole class and she called me to see her in the staff room during recess for retest but i still refused as nothing can change my decision.

So my teacher never force me into this kind of thing again that year. But in P3 and 4, none of the teachers can help me to overcome this phobia. But now, i tried to overcome this phobia but to no avail. Luckily, i can present a little bit in front of my class but i will keep thinking about finishing it quickly and passed to my friend. At least there's some improvement but i'm still scared stiff by the idea of presenting it myself.

I hope i can overcome it soon.

Bye!