Sometimes, I wonder.. When will the time comes.. When the one person who can understand me as well as my bffs come. Is it still not here yet? If it's not, how long till it comes? At times, I also think I'm not cut out for this. Seeming all sure and confident, but yet unsure and insecure. So tough to be myself, then and now. Maybe in the future too. Probably I'm just overthinking. Overthinking bout the unsure circumstances, the imminent circumstances. Whether I'll be able to survive another. Whether I should decide that I'm not suitable for this and leave it like this. Maybe I should.. It's tough. And hard on me. I really don't think I'm cut out for this. I really think remaining this way is the best for me. No drama. No antics. Just.. Like this. Going through life being myself. No more lies. No more facades. No more insecurities. This is best.. Yes. This is the best for me. Thus far...
