~It's been a long day~
Talking to one little mousey tonight, reminds me of what I had gone through back then. Maybe it was just bad timing, but sec and poly was really the worse 7 years of my life, even till now. But, I'm glad I went through it. I manage to come out stronger and able to handle what life will throw at me better. On a side note, I'm more positive too? Hmm..
While talking tho. I was asked "am I happy?". Am I? I wonder.. Even now, despite people saying I'm becoming more positive and all, I do feel that im not really all that positive. I do still feel negative once in a while. I just feel that I'm more able to look at the positive side of life and situations rather than always thinking bout the worst case scenario now. So am I happy? I'm not. And I'm happy that I'm not happy. Because even when I'm not happy, I'm satisfied with what I have now. Right now, I'm not looking for happiness. What I'm looking for right now is satisfaction. Being satisfied with what I've done throughout the day and if I'm not, think back on it and correct it if possible. My goal now, is to live with no regrets. Anything I wanna do, I'm gonna go ahead and do it even if it goes against what my mum wants.
I'm not going to live my life from now on with regrets. I'm not looking for happiness, I'm looking for no regrets. Because, happy or sad, time won't wait for you. So why not be happy, or if not happily, at the very least having no regrets. I'll never know when I'll lose my chance to live my life the way I want after all.
